Flowers

As I lay under my covers my mind starts to wonder, a habit that has been established in my childhood. This is the time that I have had my deepest ponderings, when I've come up with some of my greatest theories to help me see life the way that brings me the most joy. As I look over to my sweet roommate's wall with incredible pictures of flowers, I start to think of all the glorious creations we have all over the world - in flowers alone. I start to think about my previous thought that I'm positive our Mother in Heaven couldn't have sit back and watched everything, clearly she would want to be a part of it all! Flowers must have been something she had her hand in. I think about General Conference back in November, 2008. In a talk entitled Happiness, Your Heritage by President Dieter F. Uchtdorf, he talks of our need to create as women. As the Lord's inspired servant, he reveals truth - and truth is eternal, without beginning or end. Our Heavenly Father knew this about our sweet Mother. How beautiful it would be if He knew this - and invited her to create flowers. Even more if they created them together. The combination of their ideas brought about such a variety that covers the globe in classic beauty. There is such variety that wherever their children would venture, there would be flowers unique to their location.

I think our souls know this is something that we remember. This is why a flower is a universal sign of friendship, love, beauty, strength, light, it could symbolize any Godly emotion - because it came from a Godly love! Even little children have an innate desire to pick flowers and bring it to their mommy because they believe it will bring her joy.

Now as I think about flowers I feel a sense of joy. While it is just my own theory, I can always have a symbol to remember the perfect love of my perfect Heavenly Parents.

My Random Bucket List

We all have aspirations in life. Here are a few of mine. : D

One day I hope to slide on a ladder at a bookstore or library like on Beauty and the Beast. I've always loved this movie because I see so much of myself in Belle. The part of the movie that she rides the latter across the wall of books, I've always thought would be like a grown-up version of a slide...though I've never done it before because I thought I would get in trouble.

In the sixth grade I met a wonderful girl that would continue to be my friend for years to come. That was about 14 years ago. One day this simply delightful friend suggested that when we get old, wrinkly and other ladies our age will have difficulty getting around, we would go sky diving. It's been something I've looked forward to ever since. I'll have to work up to not being terrified and have a heart-attack, but flying in the sky happen and all my grandchildren will be able to take pictures of their grandmother with a parachute in a crazy suit with all her skin flapping around. It'll be a great day.

I think I was probably six or seven when I found out my father served an LDS mission in England. This was the first time traveling the world became a real option in my mind. I've wanted to go there ever since.

While on the same trip, I intend on traveling to Scotland or Ireland and look for faeries. They are tricky little people, so actually finding them will be difficult. But just the act of looking would fill my soul with joy.

I would like to one day ride in a limousine with a sun roof. While driving by a group of people I want to pop out and yell some great news to everyone there like "It's my birthday!" "I'm going to get married!" "I graduated!" "I lowered my cholesterol!" Or even "I got an A!!!" Really whatever good thing happened recently would be great. I'm open to options since I don't usually have many rides in limousines.

I want to go star-gazing with a real telescope in the middle of a field where there is nothing for miles, but not just by myself. The whole experience would have to last the whole night. Just watching how the sky changes as the night progresses reminds me of when my siblings and I would sleep outside during the summer more nights than we slept inside.

I have a little bit of a secret hope that someone that I love would create something about me. There was actually a friend that I had in high school who said he wanted to write a song about me, and at the time it kind of weirded me out. But since then I've always loved when someone does that for someone. It could be a song, a painting, anything that would represent what the person means to the artist. Again, this would have to be someone that I was very close to - or I wouldn't know what to think. Something like that would just melt my heart. I'm kind of a sucker for sincerity.

I want to ride along the coast...both coasts actually. Car or bike, and for that matter I'd like to travel through Europe in some atypical way. But technically the travel through Europe is from a different list, so that's enough of that.

Just a small part of me wants to become a true Aggie, for the experience. However I'm not a huge fan of much pda; so that would be just a little conflict of interest. But there is always the exception to the rule.

I want to learn how to play Canon in D. Over time I've made a lot of process toward this goal. However since I don't really know how to play piano, every time is like starting over.

I want to witness a miracle. Like something truly miraculous. I know that little miracles happen everyday. Hearing children's laughter, seeing life begin, rainbows, interactions of kindness I know are all sent from God. I am grateful for each of these experiences because they testify everyday that there is a Loving Father in Heaven who is orchestrating a greater whole. But one day I would like to see something that is just awe-inspiring.

I kind of have had another secret goal for a number of years...don't worry about how long. But at every stage in life, I always would like to feel that I am an angel to someone. Just a consistent something that I would like to be a part of all my life.

And with that I will say my last one. Since I was a little girl there has been something that I have always looked forward to. Something that when life gets hard, I always think about this overall end desire. It is something that when I think about, it helps me to refocus my thoughts and prioritize to what is truly important and helps me to let insignificant things fall away. It is something that sometimes I dream about, something I talk to my Heavenly Father about. It is something that I can sometimes have just a little glimpse of if I strive to always be close to the spirit. It is also something that I have told very few people, and will continue to do so. Thus I will not tell it on my blog! : D